My Mom - A Toughie and a Softie - Celestina and Co Giveaway

I have been planning to blog about how awesome my mom is but I can't seem to get enough inspiration or even think about a good title to start with. So, I came across this Giveaway Alert from Bebengisms and to win I had get as much entries I can. Out of the maximum number of entries which is 40, I could get 25 by doing a blog related to the one by Bebengisms wherein she magnifies the ability of women to be strong, tough and successful despite being deemed the weaker sex. You can read her post here.

Blogging juices flowing now.

Like all new things, I had to learn about motherhood by experience. I had to make mistakes to bounce back and learn from it. Being a new mom is tough, luckily, I have my mom by my side all the time. She's always there to tell me how to do things easily, what to do or not to do in messy situations and scold me if necessary - which are like, most of the time (perks of being a noob mom). Even before Kasey, Mom had been always like this, a disciplinarian, for which she is required to do since Dad has always been out of the country for work while my younger sister and I were growing up. She had always been tough, that sometimes I thought she was just being mean. But then when I got older, things come into light; I realized that all her efforts of scolding and reprimanding were just a fraction of showing her love for us. In this way, we can grow up to be respectable, good-natured and God-fearing women. Also, as my capacity to understand expands, mom gradually becomes my bestfriend; we became more open and began to confide in each other our struggles and joys. Having heard of her stories, a new person has been revealed. Just like me, she has been juggling so much emotions in her life but she doesn't allow herself to make us perceive them. All this time, she has been keeping a strong front for it is required of her. For when we, her children are weak, we have her as a source of strength. For when we thought it is hopeless, she exudes hope and faith. For when we are wrong, she stands her ground for us to know what is right and wrong, after all, she had gone all her years to know. But even if she is unmasked and all her weaknesses are revealed, I would still give her the same magnitude of love and respect because she deserves it. I am a self-proclaimed softie and it's very difficult for me to act strong when all I can do is cry my heart out when I'm hurt or choke in an argument. That is why my mom is my inspiration - tough front, soft heart. Just like the mom I wanted to be for my daughter Kasey.

Having completed this blog, I totally forgot that I was doing this to win the headbands from Celestina and Co. I hope she gets to read this since she's in the other side of the world now. And to my readers, I wish I was able to touch your hearts and make you love your moms more :)


About Celestina and Co.

Their headbands and other stuff are very cute, chic and classy. I already got Kasey's bloomers from them for her photoshoot. It's just too cute, I could wear them if only they wouldn't make me look like a repulsive overgrown baby with ruffled knickers. I'd want to purchase the headbands in this contest, but of course I'd want to get them for free so I'm taking my chances.

CarbTrim for Weight Loss?

For almost a month now, my weight has been juggling from 117-120 pounds consistently. And I got quite alarmed given my efforts of losing weight. I have resorted to crash dieting, apple-only diet and water therapy but I still find myself stuck in my 117 pound mark and if I eat slightly more than my fill it shoots up to 120. I'm just thankful it doesn't go beyond that. So, I had to find easy ways to lose weight without resorting to strenuous exercises (I'm still afraid of tearing my C-section incision you know). 

I decided to incorporate CarbTrim to my diet. Well, it seems promising on TV and the way it is plugged on Twitter by different celebs. Intrigued, I also did a quick research about its carb-fighting content, which is the white kidney bean extract. As per the articles I have read, white kidney bean extract "blocks carbs" and stops them from being broken down to unnecessary sugars, preventing belly fat. A bean drink doesn't sound very appealing but CarbTrim is an Iced Mix that comes in 2 delicious flavors, Lemon and Apple Flavor. So I am having the Lemon Flavor for 2 days now. I am not in a particular diet anymore. I just have it before meals. I guess what CarbTrim does to you is that it makes you feel full already without taking in too much calories compared to regular Iced Tea drinks that contain 120-150 kcal. So I am planning to be in this program for 1 month and I will blog about its effects which I hope are very positive. 

Let's do this CarbTrim. Slow and steady weight loss.

My First Babbles on Motherhood

First of all, I am new to blogging -- so I would like to take these first few seconds of your reading to apologize for my future nonsensical or non-coherent thoughts (just some perks of having a very random personality).

So anyway, I just gave birth to my daughter Kasey 3 months ago. She has been the joy and sunshine of our lives since then. She came out very healthy and beautiful and 95% of my friends and relatives say that she looks very much like the baby version of her dad (which I am very much in denial of because, of course, I am jealous and I wanted her to look like me more!). But the resemblance is so uncanny, there is only room for acceptance. Well, seriously, I am not disappointed that she doesn't look a lot like me, why would I be when she is the most beautiful baby girl I have laid eyes upon? She has the ability to make anyone smile only with her presence and brighten one's day with a smile. Plainly, she is just bliss here on earth.

With all honesty however, motherhood is not all the time Hallmark moments. My rants are inspired all the way back by my pregnancy. The hard truth is that at times, it is painful, messy, frustrating and just plain difficult. Sometimes. Most of the time. You would really have to stretch yourself out to constantly try harder at what seems to be like a professional occupation called being a parent. Bosses, (experienced moms) my mom included, would often scold me for the blunders I unintentionally but repeatedly do then wonder if I would ever be as good as the pro that they are. These mistakes include the schedule of feeding, changing nappies and clothes, trimming the baby's nails, forgetting to pack essentials for travelling etc.. the list goes on. And to add more to this frustration is that you get hit by depression really bad. Well personally, I have been depressed for reasons like I feel that other people have been going on with their lives accomplishing this and that and I'm here stuck at home wiping my baby's butt.

But that's just me at my worst days. Everyone has a different kind of reaction and level of tolerance when it comes to parenting. I do not mean to reflect myself as an unhappy parent because I am totally very thankful for having my baby for she is my sun and stars (Mother of Dragons?). This hard truth is just as inevitable as pushing your baby out to the world. It will always come side by side with the happiness this little human being will give you. I learned that you just have to accept that things are not always sunshine and rainbows in raising a child and that like any other career, you should always try your best to become better.

As I end this, I look at my baby. Sleeping. So serene. All the pain, frustrations and depression fade away and my world is once again euphoric as I stare at her beauty.